Do you think somethings are just done? I love a handwritten letter. I love mail! Growing up I wanted to check the mailbox even though I knew there was nothing for me. As an adult I check my mail daily. I had been sick for the past few days and didn’t check my mail. I finally checked it yesterday and oh joy! I had 2 magazines! Social media is cool but please still send me letters and cards in the mail.
I realized something today. I’m sitting here frustrated with my hair. Over a month ago I relaxed my natural hair because I thought it might be holding me back at work. My experience with natural hair in the Midwest has been different than when I was in the south. No one really seems to care here. No one treats me different. But because of my own insecurities I went back to the crack with great disappointment.
I had the second worst chemical burn in my life and I hate the cut. I haven’t been able to get a retouch because I was sick and had to cancel my appointment. While we are being honest I didn’t really have the money either. So I sit here with my hair looking a hot mess and I just want to shave it all off again. (Maybe by a professional this time.) I realized that my career wasn’t stagnant because of my hair. It was because I stopped trying. I expected a reward without doing the work. Then I blamed and punished my hair for it.
It turns out my guy hated my natural hair. Then he says he just likes for it to look done. (He sounds like my dad.) I can no longer do things based on how someone else may feel. I hate straight hair. I never liked it. I’m going natural again. I planned to anyways in 2 years but I can’t wait that long.
I’ll be visiting family in 2 weeks and I’m nervous. No one really know that I’m changing my eating habits. My family is meat, meat, seafood, meat. I love seafood. Shrimp. Yumbers, but I don’t want to eat that anymore. My sister is already talking about going to the casino just for the buffet. I told her I’m not going. I’m not paying $40 for a salad. I’d rather not go. I so far only plan to go on some of my favorite trails. When I arrive I know I will have to buy food for me to eat. I’m trying to plan ahead.
My brother is visiting and wants to go to a Vietnamese restaurant. I went once 2 years ago before I changed my eating. I don’t remember if they had any healthy/vegan options. I may suggest a different restaurant or doing an activity.